My sister is on the healing end of her nightmare. She is home and in her own bed being helped by our mom and my son. Today is her birthday. I called to wish her a happy birthday, but those wishes kind of fall like a lead balloon when one is in such pain and discomfort. At least she knows I was thinking about her though and reminding her that she did indeed live to see this anniversary of her birth.
My car is still dead in her driveway, 2 hours from here and I’m not sure how I will get it repaired to get it back home. Friends on GON have helped me tremendously this week so that our family could have decent food and gas to get to the store to get food every night. We don’t have coolers yet so unless we are going to eat dry goods alone we have to travel nightly to a store for meat and vegetables.
We hope to get at least one cooler on Saturday and will get another one after the first of the month. At least then I can do a few days of groceries at a time and save on gas money.
It’s been a hard few months and I keep looking for the silver lining, but I know October is going to be just as hard. I have get that car fixed and we will be spending more in gas money without a fridge/freezer. I have to catch up on bills I paid partials on in order to get by. Not covering partials only means late fees and more money going out which doesn’t help.
I still have a long road to go, but it’s an easier walk knowing my sister is healing. I made it this far with the help of those who care, I’m really hoping to make a good stretch on my own. I appreciate everything everyone has done, and I’m not really sure what I would have done without the help of others, but there is no pride in having to be picked up and carried. I just want to be strong enough to start baby stepping my way through this and begin paying forward all the help I have received.
